Lifes lessons

From time to time I find myself wondering why things happen how they do. I wonder what is the master plan for life. If in twenty years from now if I could look back at myself right now and help me what would I say or do? It can be so overwhelming to deal with everything. But with time looking back it seems that the hardest of days were not as bad as they seamed in the moment. Is this true of everything in life? Is it that when we are in the moment it can be almost unbearable then a week later as though nothing happened. It just makes no sense how something can be so incredibly life changing in the moment and so small a few days later. I know the longer I hold on to the past the longer I will miss the future. The thing is, life is scary no one knows what will happen in ten minutes let alone ten years. For now I just know that the past is just that a time that has past! No use living in it!!!!!

Hummmm

It is a hard to put your feelings out on your sleeve and know what is going to happen. Sometimes it takes a little courage to make the first move in life. In the end it seems that no matter if you say how you feel or keep it inside you are going to feel like a fool. So which is better feeling like a fool for putting it out there or feeling like a fool for not saying what you wish you had? Honestly I am done with the I wish I would have....it is all coming out now!!!!! Life is too short for regrets!

Timessss

It is that time of year, CHRISTMAS, this is the first year I have really felt lost as far as what to do for the children. I have no clue what to get them for Christmas. I know it does not matter because honestly in 10 years they wont remember, but I will. So this leads me to my next thought who is Christmas really about? Is it for us the parents to live through our children and over indulge them for the things that we did not have a children? It just makes me wonder why do we really go out and wait 10 hours for some dumb toy that they may or may not play with. I think this is the first year that I can say I wont do it I am not going to over compensate for the lack of time spent with my children. I think I am going to DO something with them rather than buy them toys. Because believe you me they have more CRAP than they can even play with.